Over the past year or so i've gone from an aggressive individual to an overbearing egocentric.
I'm not proud of doing so and that's why i'm posting this, to explain why.
Now i'm not one of those snotty types that roam the boards thinking they are a the best at everything but at times I certainly tend to point in that direction.
I've gone through a lot in my life and in a few months I will encounter something which may cause the loss of my life, that being a large operation, the third in fact.
Because of this, as of late i've turned into an overprotective and perhaps offensive individual, something that has to stop now.
The reason it has to stop? Well mainly because it's tearing my online life apart.
Not only I have a lost a fellow partner and favoured online friend because of this, but I now have to suffer with the fact that he's gone for good and that my current projects cannot be continued.
Although I can't do nothing about that now (Believe me, i've tried) I certainly can do something about my attitude, which will hopefully help things in the long run.
Now I myself apologise to all who I may have insulted in the past, or as of late.
I'm sorry but you have to understand what i'm going through and why at times I hurt people. (I have no intention, believe me)
I'm trying to change I really am, but it's so hard at this current time as i'm given very little support from friends or family.
Now I ask all whom i've hurt to not only forgive me for my behaviour but to also support me through these times as I feel I cannot cope.
I promise all of this community that I will change but it will take time, just trust and support me, that's all I ask.
I had brain surgery when I was 7. It was pretty easy, I didn't know that I could die, no one told me haha! I was in the hospital for 3 months and after the surgery I had no control over the left side of my body, then they pumped me up with steroids so I was hungry all the time. Pretty soon I got fat from eating cheeseburgers and chocolate milk constantly. So its pretty easy except for the catheter (PENIS TUBE HURTS LIKE A BITCH!), IV's, and needles. In fact that’s where I got my phobia of needles. When that dumb Pilipino nurse stabbed my goddamn arm 20 times trying to find the vein.
anyway you'll be fine.
Steve Zissou: Anne-Marie, do all the interns get Glocks?
well, realizing you gotta change is a step in itself (i've never been insulted by you so this is generally speaking). You just have to have determination and you'll succeed. Don't worry.
This is just out of curiosity, but may i ask what surgery it is ? is sounds horribly grim (needless to say you should only do so if you don't feel uncomfortable with it)
i havent noticed any changes in you Jon, ive spoke to you loads of times on messenger and your still Jon as far as im aware. good luck with everything mate
Good luck with the op, you're one of the original veterans, one of the dudes who tells it like it is, and sadly we're lacking in that department lately.
Anyways dude, good luck, I know how it feels to have a life threatening operation and I hope you come out healthly like I did. And if you do, I'll have a drink in your honour.
aye, I know what it's like too (leaky brain fluid. ick) and I know how hard it can be to keep your patience with people who don't take you seriously. I'd wish you good luck but I don't really believe in luck - I'm sure you'll be fine though, I wouldn't put my life in the hands of anyone else but a surgeon :B
"Say you're hanging from a huge cliff at the top of mt. everest and a guy comes along and says he'll save you, and proceeds to throw religious pamphlets at you while simultaniously giving a sermon." - Dustin G
I dont know but ive done some pretty stupid things .
The most scary one was when i was rebuilding one of my (push)bikes. I had to get to my relatives about 3 miles away (all downhill), as that was where i took the brakes, gears and chain off. "Piece of piss" i thought, i'll ride it down there, and use my feet to stop (not realising i was wearing leather soled shoes). As soon as the ba... thing started moving i could'nt stop it for love nor money (by either putting my foot on the front wheel or onfloor).
I was overtaking cars, jumping crossings doing at least 50, and cornering like Carl Fogerty, usig my foot/leg/knee to stop me going over (seriously!). My dad was following in the car and i bet him by a few mins! , and i didnt start until he started . I was very lucky that day .
I've never had trouble from you, but if I see some aggressive comments I'll consider them justified. Hope all goes well with your operation, man. Don't let it drag you down.
its a bit fuckin sad when people take the piss out of such a serious and personal topic.
ive never had an op but my brother got impailed on a fence once which was quite bloody. you could see the fatty bits in the wound too. alright im gonna pass out now...
I wished you luck, then you started being a dick because you didn't get the pity parade you were expecting. Too fucking bad, you aren't entitled to anything of the sort.
I have nothing against you or anything and I hope it all goes well, but I don't see why you choose to make this post HERE of all places. Also you don't need to appologise to ANYONE.
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11th October, 2004 at 04:05:33 -
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Good luck Jon!
Whatever you do don't turn to "Radix" for help. It usually hurts more that it helps.
Now I'll sit here and wait to be bashed by someone, as that kinda thing happend at TDC also.
"Isn't it always amazing how we characterize a person's intelligence by how closely their thinking matches ours?"
~Belgarath
I've got the entire log of the previous post Radix, so you tell me where exactly I was being a dick.
I just wanted the thread to stay on a serious note, I never asked anyone to show me pitty, only forgiveness.
You were the one who was being a dick, by asking stupid questions like: "Can you stick magnets to yourself" or "While you're at the hospital, see if you can get some kind of metal claw attached to yourself"
Those comments alone ruined the post hence me deleting and reposting it.
No offence jon, but you should of expected this. You posted it HERE at THE DAILY CLICK! If you where so worried and having a tough time why not find some sort of teen support forum or somthing?
I have been keeping an eye on this thread for awhile, and I have to
say Radix has to get some sort of hobby pretty soon. If you are bored, just start some extended jerking session instead of posting unfunny crap here to spoil topics. Jon is just apologising for things he did, there is nothing wrong with it. Its really sick to make jokes about magnets now, even when your dad is magnetic.
And if you can't deal with the seriousness at hand, try putting something else in your hand.
Jon: It's understandable, but I hope you get through your operation okay. You can trust your life with a surgeon, and you're going to have to... I never believed that myself, until someone told me that patients' noses don't actually light up if the tweezers touch the sides.
You don't even know me so don't judge me like you've been monitoring my behaviour over the past 3 years.
I wasn't being an asshole, I was just offended by your not very thought out jokes.
I appreciate you wishing me luck and actually at the time of you doing so, I was flattered, until you brought out the insulting mix of words you like to call humour.
See, that right there. That's what we call an asshole, kids. I'm very sorry for making a single post not saturated with the pathos you're after, and promise never to do it again.
Rx: I just said "I'm allergic to bullshit" on a forum somewhere.
Rx: I give it five minutes before some idiot says somehting like "you must be allergic to yourself then!"
Kaiser: i can guarantee it
Kaiser: fucktards aree the essence of predictability
Rx: Right.
How about bleeping (*) out swear words,
10 year olds come on this site, including my brother!
How about you both apologise, even if you believe you did right, and we can try to make TDC a better place And whoever apologises first'll be the bigger man
"Say you're hanging from a huge cliff at the top of mt. everest and a guy comes along and says he'll save you, and proceeds to throw religious pamphlets at you while simultaniously giving a sermon." - Dustin G
Radix would be a good admin, he has a good grasp of the english language, but sometimes has outbursts and tells people off. I think being an admin would change this.
I didn't bother applying because sometimes I don't like to be bothered with caps and I too have outbursts.
Steve Zissou: Anne-Marie, do all the interns get Glocks?
Anne-Marie: No, they have to share one.
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13th October, 2004 at 06:18:20 -
It is said that "You can never change a persons' personality, it would be the same as changing a persons' brain(or something like that, I don't remeber but it's a cool word)which isn't cool."
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(needless to say you should only do so if you don't feel uncomfortable with it)
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, and i didnt start until he started 
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